Wednesday, January 7, 2009

My Story

Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Well...after much thought about putting this on the internet here it goes...

My name is Alicia and I am almost 26yrs old. My whole life I had been what people call "good shaped." I was a perfect size 5...I had a great set of boobs that are real (DD) and an awesome ass. However, my weight fluctuated from about 140-150. Alot of people think oh that's big for my 5 ft 1 in stature but it wasnt. I was perfectly portioned with my butt & boobs. If I ever wanted to lose a few lbs I would just miss a meal or two and that always worked. I was very athletic so I had a good metabolism. I never had weight problems when I was in school.

I got married at 20 and had a baby at 21. I will tell you upfront that I am naive. I honestly thought that all the weight that I gained I would lose shortly after I had my baby. Thinking this I gained sixty lbs during my pregnancy. I could miss some meals and lose it all and maybe then some. Yeah right! Ok so if you have done the math already when I gave birth I weighed 210lbs!!! I was shocked. But still I thought I could lose it. I breast fed my child and lost maybe 5-10lbs. Oh dont let me forget to tell you that my daughter weighed in at 8 lbs 10oz. What a ham! So I think after a few months I weighed maybe 190-195 and was content with that until I could really jump in it and try to lose weight. Well my daughter will be 5 next week and I now weigh 240lbs. Needless to say I didnt lose any weight but found it and then some.

Over the years I have not been active. I worked for a doctors office that had lunch catered in everyday and if not we would always had fast food. Oh yes...fast food is my downfall. Plus my husband is very picky at what eats (no veggies, I am serious) and my daughter has taken to the same habits. So with this I hardly ever cook. We always eat out or have things that are just not healthy. These are my excuses. But I am to the point where there are no more excuses. I have to do something about it.

This will be my weight loss story. I need encouraging and I need support. My husband is both but I have said that I am dieting so many times and have obviously have not been successful that I am tired of talking to him about it. I do feel though he is happy with me the way I am but I have joked with him about him being happier if I were "skinny" and his response one time shocked me. He told me he loved me no matter what but he felt that I would be happy with myself if I lost the weight. He really brought it to my attention about how unhappy I was with myself (and still am). I was always trying to make him happy (and he was) and never thought about myself. Well 2009 will be about me. I am going to lose the weight and YOU are going to be my support. Stay tuned for my goals...

3 comments:

Mandy and Jack

Good for you, Alicia!! I know you can do it! I'm finding the same things true for me - I've always been in great shape without any work at all, but now I work in an office instead of walking around on a university campus all day and it's definitely changed my metabolism. So now I'm working out, and I'm actually LIKING IT! It's shocking, almost, because I always HATED working out. But I want to be healthy, I don't want to end up with blood clots, heart disease, or diabetes. I want to conceive and birth kids easily when the time's right and keep them healthy too. Let's do this thing!!!

I'll be reading!! You'll do great!

the smiling fat girl

I will be your buddy; you be mine. K?

ben and erin

hey i just saw your comment on blurayn's post about losing weight. when i was reading your story i felt like i was reading my bio! i'm 26, got married when i was 20, and had my daughter when i was 21. i had another baby a year and a half ago and so i have baby baby fat to lose! i think i've gained 50-60 pounds since i got married, so i'm attempting to do this with april too. good luck... God is bigger than your weight and can help you do anything!

 
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