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A Blog Makeover for a Great Cause

I have been following Mandy for a couple of weeks now. She had a great idea and so I wanted to share it with all of you. She is really into scrapbooking and she has designed her own blogs and they look awesome! Anyway she just recently did a blog makeover for one of her friends and as payment she asked that a donation be made to the MS Foundation. What a good idea! Let her know I sent you over! Click on the button for more details!

A Blog Makeover for a Great Cause

I have been following Mandy for a couple of weeks now. She had a great idea and so I wanted to share it with all of you. She is really into scrapbooking and she has designed her own blogs and they look awesome! Anyway she just recently did a blog makeover for one of her friends and as payment she asked that a donation be made to the MS Foundation. What a good idea! Let her know I sent you over! Click on the button for more details!

Im Hungry

Here I am sitting up watching tv and blog stalking. I guess that nap that I took didnt do me any favors for tonight. Since I am not really doing anything productive (because everyone else is asleep) I keep wanting to go ramble through the refrigerator. I actually have once...but good thing we dont have anything to eat. I know I am not hungry...only bored. Boredom is my biggest problem. I think I have to eat and I dont. Instead of eating I am drinking a bottle of water...and going to the bathroom alot. I guess I got to get use to all the water I am taking in.

Doing some better

Kaylyn is doing some better. She isnt coughing as much as she was this morning or even last night. However, I found that Kevin wasnt giving her enough medicine so that could have been part of the problem today. Per the prescription bottle it says "Give Kaylyn 2 teaspoonfuls once a day". I guess Kevin didnt see the 2 because he has been giving her 1. So I gave her another this afternoon (she will probably be up all night). I love my husband but sometimes he doesnt pay attention. That's ok because Mommy caught the mistake.

Since I have been home with her (I left work around 2) she has been fine. She has been watching movies and playing the Wii. I put her down for a nap in hopes of me getting one too since we were up most of the night last night. I dont think she ever went to sleep but I sure did!

I have given her a bath and washed her hair. She is watching Shrek right now and soon, very soon we are getting ready to go to bed. Good Night:)

January 30

I had sort of an eventful day. Kaylyn has been sick so I didnt work all day either. For breakfast I flew on by passed up McDonald's. This is an accomplishment in itself because today was pay day so I usually stop. So Yay Me! I didnt stop. What I did have was a packet of oatmeal (which was 110 calories). For lunch I had grilled chicken with wild rice with a sweet tea. For supper I had a subway cold cut combo on wheat. Having subway was a huge struggle. Kaylyn and Kevin wanted McDonald's (lets face it, I dont cook on Fridays) so I asked to swing by Subway (which is right beside McDonald's) and he sort of had a problem with that. He assumed I was having McDonald's and he was going to have Backyard Burger and he didnt want to now make 3 stops. I told him nicely firmly that I didnt care how many stops he had to make I wasnt eating McDonald's or Backyard Burger. In the end, Kaylyn had McDonald's and WE had Subway (ha ha).

Water...something that I dont consume alot of. My very bad habit is sweet tea. I can and will drink that all day long. I do drink soda's but I much prefer sweet tea. Because of the amt of sweet tea I do consume I know I have to make a change. I am going to start drinking only water with the exception of 1 (and only 1) sweet tea a day. I feel that if I completely give up sweet tea I wont stick to just drinking water. So as of today I have consumed 3 bottles of water (I think its like 16oz per bottle). So not too bad for day 1 on water, and yes I had sweet tea for lunch. So tell me do you drink alot of water?

Now we have a fever...

Kaylyn woke up this morning still coughing and I noticed she had a fever. She has a low grade fever. She is on steroids and an inhaler. I was hoping that would help but I guess not. I am waiting on the nurse to call me back. She coughed all night and nothing I gave her seem to really comfort or help her. As a mom you hate to see her that way. Hopefully the nurse will call me back soon and can call in something for her cough. I would feel better about that.

Since she has a cough and now a fever we decided it would be best for her to stay home from school today. Of course this will crush her. But we decided that we arent going to say anything and IF she brings up school we are going to tell her there wasnt school today. How pathetic is that? She loves school so her staying home would only upset her more which would then trigger her cough. So we got to make her think that there is no school so she isnt "missing" out on anything.

Flabby Friday

Hey Everyone! Join Christa on Flabby Friday's. She has started this and I have joined in. Go see Christa and join in too!

Like I told Christa, my goal is to lose weight. But what I want most of all is to be able to play with my daughter without getting winded. I never have the energy to play with her unless it involves sitting and watching a movie. I dont want to be that kind of mom. I want to be active!

Dinner

For dinner I had a bowl of Mac & Cheese. It was only a bowl...usually I can put away the whole box! For my dessert I had a Chewy Granola bar (those are only 100 calories so i guess they arent too bad). It was good too! I have a bad sweet tooth so maybe that will help curb it.

People keep telling me I need to eat on a schedule (you know, 6am, 12pm, and 6pm). Well I cant do that, well all of that. I can do the 12pm but the 6am is too early and same for the 6pm. I get home from work around 6pm so it's hard to eat at 6pm...I have to have time to fix it. And to top it off I am not a schedule type of person. I dont have a schedule other than my work schedule which is Monday-Friday 8am-5pm. Schedule's dont work for me.

Milos for Lunch

Come on...do you think I had Milo's for lunch?

It sure sounds good though. Well around here (at work) when it's lunch time we all start shouting out what we want. It looks like Milo's won today. So here I am thinking...well if I have Milo's it wont be that bad right? Probably not but then I really got to thinking about posting Milo's for my lunch. I could not have Milo's and tell you about it. So being the nice person that I am I volunteered to go smell this fattening food pick up the food for everyone. I decided I wasnt going to have Milo's, no not me (really!). I picked everyone's food up (it smelled great of course) and then I went by and got me a salad. Yes a salad! I was the oddball out with the salad. It was a Chef salad with light italian dressing. It was good and I think much better for me than the Milo's. The Milo's would have went straight to my butt and thighs! Anway that's what I had for lunch.



Breakfast this morning I had half of a banana. It was turning black/brown so I though I would eat it before it went bad. I only could get down half of it. It already went bad lol! So I then popped in some sugarless gum (thanks Brandy)! When I actually got to work one of my coworkers was having some grits. She made too much so she made me I had like half a cup of that too.

So this is so far what I have had today. I really need to exercise too. That is coming. I am going to incorporate it into my schedule...one of these days!

Why is it

So why is it that when you are laying in bed thinking about all the exercises you need to do you get all pumped up and think I can do this! Why is that? Because the next day when you are suppose to "start" this new routine you were so pumped up last night just thinking about it and now you have no energy for today. So of course you push it back and then this becomes a normal nightly routine.

Last night I was thinking, "Boy I really need to go to the gym!" I mean I only pay $30.00 a month for a gym membership that I havent even been to since like Sept. or Oct!! I know what a waste of money right? I have to get into the mind set of that I can do it. I can...I can!! I know that if I make time for it then it will come more naturally and hopefully will become a routine. I need a routine. I had originally planned on going to the gym at like 5am and workout till like 6:30 (which in my mind is a good workout) and then go to work. At night there really is not time for me to go, so that is why I really want to do the early morning thing. Now I just have to get off my butt actually, back because I am sleeping and do it! Just do it!

January 28

Well my day went pretty well. Here is what I had...no lies either. I struggled not to put some of it down but that's only lying to myself.

Breakfast-I went by the dreaded McDonald's and had a Sausage & Egg McGriddle. Oh, I felt so guilty after I ate that...even though it was good! I have to learn to PASS McDonald's...just keep driving!

Lunch-I had soup and salad from Olive Garden. It was take out so it wasnt "All you can Eat." It was really good. I also found out that one breadstick from Olive Garden is 4 pts on Weight Watchers...so that is 10 pts alone in that one meal. I had 2 1/2 of a breadstick.

Supper-My hubby wanted to Grill Hamburgers & Hot Dogs. Not my favorite meal but I didnt have to cook it!! So I had a Hamburger & a Hot Dog. I shouldnt have had both but I did.

So that is what all I have had today. I will not eat anything else tonight...even though I am watching American Idol right now.

Wordless Wednesday

Isn't she cute? Of course I am a little bias...she is my daughter!

Sick Again

K had to go to the doctor again today. I of course couldnt get off because I had to be at work today since there was several things going on. Kevin took her...how much of what the doctor said did I actually get back? Nothing hardly. Why is it when you send them somewhere to do something they never return with the "important" information? Anyway, all I could get from him was that she still had a cough (duh!!) and he gave her some steroids and an inhaler. I bet the steroids will keep her up...just like they did me! Anyway, the poor thing still has a cough that she cant seem to shake. So let's hope that this medicine works for her. I hate hearing her cough...that is the only symptom she has. I will update you as she gets better. The doctor said that she should be completely better within the next week...I hope so!

January 27

I am going to try and post what all I ate today...hopefully this will be a way that I can hold myself accountable. Maybe if I can blog it and see it that will help me to not eat as much.

Breakfast-I actually didnt have anything...I know that is bad but I really was running late this morning.

Lunch-I had Chinese...not too bad but not that good. I didnt eat it all though. It was chicken fried rice with a egg roll.

Supper-well unfortunately I havent had anything yet. Yes its almost 7 so I really am not helping myself at all. My hubby is asleep (he works nights) so I am waiting on him to wake up and see what he wants. I will let you know:)

Let me know what you had!

Yes a Spider

I was bitten by a spider or at least that's what the doctor told me. No, I didnt see it or feel it so I really dont know exactly when it happened. I noticed Friday at work that there was a place on my left leg that was hurting. So I raised my pant leg up and it looked like a little pimple. I thought maybe it was an infected hair or something, I really didnt think much of it. Well Saturday it was really hurting. I took another look at it and it was huge!! Big red cirlce with a little black dot in the middle. Great...I wonder what this could be! Still it really didnt alarm me. Then on Sunday it was even bigger! I got to pressing around on it and it was a big huge knot. If you have a weak stomach...exit now. Well I am wondering if I could release some of the pressure so I try and pop it like a pimple. Sure enough some puss & blood came oozing out. I got out all I could and put some antibiotic cream & a band aid on it. Later that night it was hurting worse so I figured might as well go to the dr...I do need my leg lol! So Monday afternoon I go and see the Dr. Yup, she confirmed it. It was a spider bite. She said that since I drained most of it on Sunday she wasnt going to cut it open and try and drain it anymore (Thank you God, I surely would have passed out). I didnt get away too clean though...I did get a big steroid shot in the butt along with some antibiotic pills & a cream prescription. Yea me! I was bitten by a spider, have no clue when & WHERE it happened. Not to mention the Dr informed me that 90% of all spider bites occur in the BED!! Can you beleive that?

Well the hubby had to work all night last night so me and K had the house to ourselves. I watched some shows on TV and then put K to bed. I realized I am pumped! I have this rush of energy and couldnt sit still. I want to clean. My only problem was that my house was pretty clean because I my hubby cleaned it from top to bottom over the weekend because we had someone coming to look at it. Keep in mind I had that steroid shot so I was going to bed no time soon. I did however wash my sheets and inspected my bed for unwanted critters. I didnt find any...not sure if that was good or bad though. After that I blog stalked surfed the web for several hours and then I think I finally passed out around 2:30 am. Gee 3 hrs of sleep...I have to get up at 5:30am. Well at least I will sleep good tonight (hopefully)!!!

I am going to do it (try at least)

I think I am going to go ahead and join weight watchers. I think the reason I havent so far is because of the money. I really dont have the extra $40 bucks a month to keep this up. I might join for a month and get all the materials and then monitor myself at home. Plus I am hoping for some online support from my bloggy buddies. Weight Watcher meetings here in my area are held on MOnday's so that is when I will bite the bullet and join.

I know that I am going to have to get discplined. I think this can work. I plan on planning out my meals a week in advance instead of waiting to the day of and not having time to fix it and giving up and heading to a fast food restarant. Fast food is my downfall...its quick & easy fattning. So I have to stop eating it...maybe it will save me some money too!



I will try to do as many updates as possible on here. My goal is to lose 2lbs a week. Start off small and work my way up! I have an online buddy April who is doing the same. I am praying that this works out. I dont want to be vain but I really have to do it for my health! I cant even walk up stairs without getting winded. This has to change!

Not Me Monday!

So it's Monday again! Here is the best therapy there is!! If you want more therapy just visit MckMama's blog over at www.mycharmingkids.net. So here is this weeks my Not Me's!!!

• It was Not Me! that felt completely somewhat guilty that my husband cleaned our entire house from top to bottom because we have someone coming to look at it & hopefully buy it.
• It was Not Me! that fed my daughter chocolate cake at 10:30pm because she didnt get any cake that day and it was her Pa Pa John's Birthday!
• It was Not Me! that I was driving down the road singing a "Country" song and bust out crying at the end of the song...I think it was Kenny Chesney's "There Goes My Life." Why would I cry at a song??
• Since we have our home on the market it was Not Me! that moved a chair completely out of the living room just because I didnt want that chair in the picture.
  
• Its Not Me! that doesnt want to take a bath because the bathtub looks so clean!!
• It was also Not Me! that went through all of Kaylyn's toys and collected 3 boxes of old toys and then took them to Hannah Home without Kaylyn knowing.
• It was Not Me! that watched 2 hours of Desperate Housewives, Grey's Anatomy, and Private Practice last night because I have been so busy throughout the week to watch it.
  
• It was Not Me that felt really bad tonight when I grabbed Kaylyn's arm to get her attention and I squeezed too tight. What kind of mother would do that?
• It was also Not Me! that met my brother's new girlfriend and it was Not Me that did not like her:)
  

Waiting

Someone was suppose to come look at out house today between 3 & 4 and it is now 4:10. Call me impatient but I cant stand waiting. I am just so eager to get rid of this thing that I cant stand it! I guess I am just anal about being on time. If I tell someone I will be there at 3:30 (for example) then I will be there at 3:25!! I keep getting up and looking out the window and there is no one there. I know I am acting like a child. I really need to get some patience!!!

Random Stuff

So we went house looking again today. Of course we found one that we really like. It's a foreclosure but the bank went through today and had it new carpet & vinyl flooring put down and a fresh coat of paint put on the walls. It looks so much better than the pictures I started looking at on the internet. The original asking price has dropped 40K!! It's at a price that we can actually afford. The only thing is I am not crazy about the school that K will be zoned at. It is completely out of our way and I just thing she would be better at the school that is like 5 mins away from our home now. I know...why am I moving? Well now I live in a mobile home and I am just ready for a house. I have nothing against mobile homes but I am a bit of a scaredy cat freak when it comes to bad weather. I will not stay in this place if I think it is going to be bad weather. I will run to my mom & dad's just like a little baby!! That is my main reason of wanting to move. Of course the real estate market is great right now so we could really get a good intrest rate too! But of course we have to sell our mobile home first. So please send up a prayer for me. We are not looking to make anything off of it...just payoff. Just pray that someone is looking for a mobile home!!!

Suggestions Please!!!

I have a very picky 5 year old that doesnt eat anything!! I am serious...no mashed potatoes, mac & cheese, hamburgers, or pizza (yes I said Pizza!). You know the usual stuff that kids want? Not to mention all of the vegetables that she needs. Her diet consists of McDonals's happy Meals (6 pc McNuggets, Fries & a Sprite), canned biscuits (I am serious...she loves biscuits), and she does eat fruit...I cant complain here. But I really want her to eat other normal things.

Yesterday a note came home in her back pack saying that another Child was going to bring Pizza the next day for their birthday so dont send a lunch with your child. I had to send a lunch because I knew she wouldnt eat pizza. What is so weird about my kid?

I have talked to the Dr about her eating habits and he considers her normal & healthy. He said that I dont need to traumatize her at meal time and that eventually she would eat. He also doesnt agree with starrving her down meaning give her what I want her to have and nothing more until she gives up and eats. Well part of me wants her to hold her down and shove it down her throat make her sit their until she eats her meal and the other part is just saying it will all come in time. Well I want that time to be now!! She will be going to Kindergarten next year. I know she wont eat the lunches there...and I dont mind making her lunch but wouldnt you think the same old thing would get boring? It would for me! I dont even like having leftovers.

I think I wouldnt worry as much if she would just try it. She wont even try anything. As a child I was made to try it...if I didnt like it I didnt have to eat it. But at least I tried it! I cant say that for her. So if you have any suggestions on what I could do please let me know:)!

Not Me Monday!

Ok folks! It's that time again. This is where I can confess all of the "Not Me" moments of the week and I am totally free of judgment. To read more "Not Me" moments hop on over to MckMama's blog at www.mycharmingkids.net. So here I go...

• It was Not Me who waited until the very last minute to mail out Birthday invitations for Kaylyn's birthday!
• It was also Not Me that waited until this last minute to get a cake that I ended up having to print a picture of Wall-E so that they can scan it on the cake instead of having a Wall-E cake made.
  
• Again it was so Not Me that went looking for a house and fell in love with it. It will take a little elbow...well maybe alot of elbow grease to get into shape.
• It was Not Me that gave my daughter some candy fruit snacks for "breakfast" one morning because I didnt feel like cooking anything. Wow...thats bad. But its ok because it wasnt me:)
• It is not me that has become such a blog stalker! I would never admit that but its not me anway so what does it matter?
• It was not me that didnt do laundry all week that it finally piled up and the hubby didnt have any jeans to wear to work so he ended up doing the laundry. What kind of wife would do that? Not Me!!
  

Pajama Day

Today at school it was National Do Nothing Day...too bad I couldn't have taken part of this at work!! Anyway the school took part of that and they pretty much did nothing all day. The children got to wear their pajama's and bring the blankets, pillows, and sleeping bags. So Kaylyn just loved this. For her Birthday she got this pear of Ariel pajama's that she just loves. However because it was 10 degrees outside she didnt get to wear her new pair. Instead we put her in the footed pajama's that are warm and they zip up. It was so cute. But of course by the time I got home to see her she had already changed into her new pair. So I got this picture instead.

Hooter's Girl

Where of all places would you take your 5 yr old for her Birthday lunch? Well mine wanted to go to Hooter's!! Yes...Hooter's. We often go there and she loves all the attention from the "girls" and of course loves their wings!! I hear they have good wings! LOL!! They put her on top of the table and made her dance while they sang "Happy Birthday" to her. Here are some pics we took.

Happy Birthday Kaylyn

Kaylyn is officially 5! She was born at 5:33 pm CST. She has had a wonderful birthday. She will be having her "official" party on Sunday with family and friends. I of course will post pics that day too. Kevin and I went to Kaylyn's school a few mins early today and had cupcakes for the whole class. They were all so excited especially Kaylyn. I am sure the parents were happy to since we were "sugaring" them up right before they leave to go home. Here are some pics of this afternoon at school.

This was while everyone was singing "Happy Birthday" to her!

Those are some yummy cupcakes!

Weight Watchers

It has really been weighing heavy on my heart about Weight Watchers. I really am thinking about joining. Alot of people have told me I should. I want to but we are really tight with cash right now so I dont know how much it is. I have been trying to find a price but the only one I can find is the over the internet version. I want the live thing where I can go and weigh in and enjoy the minutes. I think this is what I am going to do. If anybody has any tips let me know:)

Mom...I wanna a???

Kaylyn and I were driving to church tonight and she informed me she wanted a (and I quote) "leotarget." I said a what?? I want a leotarget mom!!! What is that I asked. Well Julia has one and so does Hanna and Bella and they always wear it to gymnastics (ahhh, and the light bulb comes on). Oh you mean a leotard I asked. Her answer: Whatever...you know what I mean. Really she is 4. Too cute!!!

Speaking of her being 4. Well tomorrow is her Birthday. I am kind of depressed. She is getting so big and doesnt really rely that much on me. Maybe I need to have another one (dont tell my hubby)! For being 4 she says the weirdest thing.

Also on our way to church tonight she asked me that when she turns 5 will her voice change. I said no and asked her why she was asking. She said Jason's voice changed and wanted to know when hers was going to. I had to inform her that her's will not change like Jason's.

***Let me fill you in on Jason. Jason is my stepson who will be 15 in February. Enough said there. His voice did change dramatically over the summer. He is becoming a man. Now if I could get him to take a shower we would be doing good. He actually lives with his mom in Atlanta so we get him once a month and all during the summer.

Not Me Monday!

Ok its that time again! This is where I can tell you all of the thing's I "did not" do this week. Its so fun. You can view more "Not me's!" on www.mycharmingkids.net the original creator of "Not Me!" Monday!

I was not me who chased down the ice cream man because in a split decision I thought my daughter deserved an ice cream to only find out that after I caught him, waiting on her to find out what she wanted, got back in the car & buckled her up, opened the popsicle for her that she took one bite and decided she was "bored" with that ice cream and she didnt want it!!!

It was not me that went this weekend to look at houses and found one that I like and have discussed putting an offer down on it. Not me because honestly we are so tight as it is now I am not sure if we could swing this.

It was not me that waited a week before my daughter's birthday party to buy the inviations to her party and filled them out at the last minute and still havent gotten them in the mail as of today...nooo not me! I am a good mother that doesnt wait until the last minute to do things!

It was also not me that go so mad at my insurance company for not having me "covered" by 1/1/09 that I ended up paying $250 for a presription that I had to have! I mean I filled out the paper work in November...you would think that would be enough time to enter me in the computer and have my card to me by 1/1.!!!

Until next week....

Monday will be better!

Ok, I have decided to start over on Monday. This week has just been off so I havent been able to do anything. Please pray for strength to stay on track. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!

Queen of the Bubbles

Every Saturday night my parents keep Kaylyn. We get a night off. It's nice. I look at it as if I dont have to bathe her. Well my dad has been sick so he went to bed very early and my mom cant really get down and bathe Kaylyn her so I did tonight. She loves bubbles so we filled up the tub with bubbles. She claimed "Mom, I am King of the Bubbles!" I said "No, baby you are Queen of the Bubbles!" I had to explain boys are kings and girls are queens. I think she understood. Here are some snapshots that I took.

Thursday

I started off good and then I dont know where it went. First of all I drove right past McDonald's. Usually every morning I will have a McGriddle & a large sweet tea.

Breakfast: a packet of oatmeal and water.
Lunch: Grilled Chicked over a a bed of wild rice with a small salad & Sweet tea
Supper: Half of a BBQ sandwich from Full Moon BBQ with a sweet tea
Snack: 2 white powder donuts

I know the snack wasnt that good. But I only had 2 compared to the whole bag that I really wanted.

Several things have been going on so hopefully I can get to the gym. I really am dying to go...but I have a tendancy to build it up and poop out when its time to go. I really just need to suck it up and go!

The Ice Cream Man

Last night I was heading down to my parents with Kaylyn. I was having some problems with my computer that I just got for Christmas and since my mom & dad got it for me (really us) I had to get the receipt to take it back. Anyway...I will post on that later. We were walking out the front door and what does my 4yr olds "rada" ears hear? The darn ice cream man. Its 45 degrees outside. I wonder how much he is selling?? Of course she starts jumping up & down screaming I want an ice cream. I think to myself why not she has been good lately. So he had already passed out street. So I got her in the car and off we go chasing the ice cream truck (what we moms do for our kids!). I was driving down streets in our neighborhood and as I am pulling out of the last street in the neighborhood back onto the main road there he goes flying by. So I pull behind him and we go for a min and he slows down for that darn speed hump, as he does this I flash my lights at him (oh yeah its dark too!). Kaylyn is in the back street screaming ram him(I swear I dont know where she gets this)! He saw me and he pulled over on the side of the road and we followed. We get out and he apologizes for "zooming" past us. All is well because we stopped him. Kaylyn finally makes up her mind at what she wants the neopolitan ice cream sandwich ($1.75!!). I tahnk him again for stopping and we hop in the car. I do my motherly threats about not getting it in my car because I have to head on down to my parents. I hand it to here and then buckle myself in. I put the car in drive and pull out onto the main highway. I literally drive for about 30 seconds and Kaylyn says "I change my mind...I dont want ice cream no more!!!" Do you know how fast my blood preassure rose???

Update on Kaylyn

Monday I spent some time at the doctors office with Kaylyn. She has walking pneaumonia (I dont know how to spell that but you know what I mean). She really didnt have any symptoms. I took her in for a cough that we just cant seem to get rid of. The doc said she wasnt that bad but gave her the pink (yummy) antibiotic for 5 days. He warned that her cough might get worse before it gets better. Sure enough yesterday I thought she coughed up her lungs or something! But she was fine...just coughed a lot. But by the afternoon she was fine. I really havent heard her cough since. I am hoping its pretty much gone (I just jinxed it), but we will see. She feels great. She went back to school...the dr said she wasnt contagious. Besides she would have been devistated if she didnt get to go to school. She loves it. Today she is doing much better. No cough still and the usual high energy. That is my girl.

My Goals

I think in the past I have been setting unreasonable goals. Like losing literally 100lbs. I think I am going to break them up into "milestones" to make them more attainable. I was thinking maybe 8-10lbs per month. If I dont lose that I will keep trying though. I just dont want to set a big number and be bummed out when I only lose (hopefully) a small amt. This way I have several goals.

Another is to consume more water. I dont drink much soda but I live off of Sweet Tea. That is another downfall of mine. I know that I cant cut sweet tea out completely but drinking more water and less sweet tea would be better.

I really need to cut out the fast food and start cooking more. Maybe if I would cook more I could get my daughter to eat more veggies. I love veggies but sometimes fast food is easier and definately "fast." Also cutting this out will probably save me some money...that would be good too!

I have a gym membership that I pay monthly for and I cant tell you the last time I was in there. I really want to hit the gym at least 3-5 times a week. I really need to set my mind to it and just do it. I love going but it seems I never have the time. Once again I wish there were more hours in the day. I would love to go first thing in the morning at 5 when it opens up and then (this part I am not too hip on) shower & get ready for work there so that I can go straight into work. That is my goal but I have to get my butt out of bed and do it!! Playing on the computer late at night doesnt help that either...oh well I need to manage my time better!

So there are my goals for now and I will probably add to them once I get a grasp on some of these. What are some of yours?

My Story

Well...after much thought about putting this on the internet here it goes...

My name is Alicia and I am almost 26yrs old. My whole life I had been what people call "good shaped." I was a perfect size 5...I had a great set of boobs that are real (DD) and an awesome ass. However, my weight fluctuated from about 140-150. Alot of people think oh that's big for my 5 ft 1 in stature but it wasnt. I was perfectly portioned with my butt & boobs. If I ever wanted to lose a few lbs I would just miss a meal or two and that always worked. I was very athletic so I had a good metabolism. I never had weight problems when I was in school.

I got married at 20 and had a baby at 21. I will tell you upfront that I am naive. I honestly thought that all the weight that I gained I would lose shortly after I had my baby. Thinking this I gained sixty lbs during my pregnancy. I could miss some meals and lose it all and maybe then some. Yeah right! Ok so if you have done the math already when I gave birth I weighed 210lbs!!! I was shocked. But still I thought I could lose it. I breast fed my child and lost maybe 5-10lbs. Oh dont let me forget to tell you that my daughter weighed in at 8 lbs 10oz. What a ham! So I think after a few months I weighed maybe 190-195 and was content with that until I could really jump in it and try to lose weight. Well my daughter will be 5 next week and I now weigh 240lbs. Needless to say I didnt lose any weight but found it and then some.

Over the years I have not been active. I worked for a doctors office that had lunch catered in everyday and if not we would always had fast food. Oh yes...fast food is my downfall. Plus my husband is very picky at what eats (no veggies, I am serious) and my daughter has taken to the same habits. So with this I hardly ever cook. We always eat out or have things that are just not healthy. These are my excuses. But I am to the point where there are no more excuses. I have to do something about it.

This will be my weight loss story. I need encouraging and I need support. My husband is both but I have said that I am dieting so many times and have obviously have not been successful that I am tired of talking to him about it. I do feel though he is happy with me the way I am but I have joked with him about him being happier if I were "skinny" and his response one time shocked me. He told me he loved me no matter what but he felt that I would be happy with myself if I lost the weight. He really brought it to my attention about how unhappy I was with myself (and still am). I was always trying to make him happy (and he was) and never thought about myself. Well 2009 will be about me. I am going to lose the weight and YOU are going to be my support. Stay tuned for my goals...

Yay!!! No More Reruns!

Ok...I hate to admit it but my guilty pleasure is watching tv. I work, play mommy, and play wife (keep in mind all of these are full time jobs) so I can at least have this to enjoy right? Listen to my tv schedule and let me know what you think?
Sunday--Desperate Housewives & Brother's & Sister's
Tuesday--Law & Order SVU
Wednesday--Law & Order
Thursday--Grey's Anatomy & Private Practice
Friday--Lipstick Jungle
OF course I DVR all of these shows because my nights are busy being a mommy & wife. So I normally watch these either on the weekend or late at night. If there could only be more hours in the day lol!!

Now you know my guilty pleasure...what is yours?

Getting back in the Swing of Things...

Ok...tomorrow school starts back. I cant tell you how excited I am:) I am not one that goes strictly by a schedule but I do like some normalcy in my life. Kaylyn is so excited about going back to school. She has been counting down the days (seriously). So here I am trying to get back on schedule. It hasnt been easy tonight. For her she has been able to stay up late and do pretty much what she wants to within reason. Tonight however she got to play a little while after dinner and then I gave her a bath. She loves to play in the bath but I was not up for that so it was short & sweet. After she got out I dried her hair and got her ready for bed. Getting her to bed was another story...I literally had to drag her to her room. Poor thing. I guess we really need to stay on schedule when she isnt in school. Funny thing is though she has only been in her bed about 15mins and she is already asleep. Sleep tight Kaylyn...

Not Me! Monday

It's time for Not Me Monday!!! I have been following along on several blogs especially the creator of Not Me Monday's MckMama and just joined the blogging world. This is where you can tell evyone things you "did not" do! Its great therapy! You should try it! So here goes my first...

It was Not Me who took my child by McDonald's for an ice cream cone knowing that I would end up eating half of it because she only likes the smushy cone...no not me!

No it wasnt me that cleaned out all of Kaylyn's toys and picked out the ones I know she still plays with and gave the others to Goodwill without her knowing. That would be awful!

It was Not Me that got this brand new laptop for Christmas and have been on it pretty much ever since. It was also Not Me that got defensive when my husband brought it to my attention that it is "our" laptop not just mine.

It is Not Me that is making up all kinds of excuses in my head of why I dont want to go in to work today! I have gotten so use to having a day or two off because of the Holidays.

Kaylyn...You are my Sunshine!

I wanted to inform everyone on how I got my blog name. Within the last couple of months Kaylyn has wanted me to sing her a lullaby (that just isnt me) but I have been. One night she spent the night over at my in-laws because I had to be at work early & so did Kev. Well the next night she said she had a new lullaby that she wanted to sing me. So I told her go for it. She sang "You are my Sunshine, My only Sunshine" and so on. It was so cute to hear a 4yr old sing that. And she loves it now. We sing it everynight before she goes to bed.

She loves it so much that we were sitting in Church one day and some of the Children were singing songs they knew. Well Kaylyn is not shy at all and she begged me to let her sing. Well being the Mom that I am not wanting to mess up the flow I told her "No, maybe next time." That wasnt good enough for her so she went to Nina (my mom) and told her she wanted to sing. Nina (who cant say "No") talked to the choir director and they invited her right up on stage. I thought she might freak out and not go through with it but she did it! She stood up there in front of everyone and sang "You are my Sunshine" and at the end she got a standing ovation. I was so proud of her because I could never have done that...not even at 4! She definatley is my Sunshine!!